Sometimes when im alone i just get to thinking and its about the same thing everytime. Im definitely not one to get attached im really not but i do very rarely. And it sucks when that person doesn’t even wanna talk to you and replaces you with someone else over something that they heard or w.e. and isnt even true. If i didnt do anything, why am I the one to get punished for it. I hate being the little bitch but thats the price you pay for caring too much about someone. Definitely not doing that again. IDK who told you that but what I do know is that is you’re gonna take there word over mine then maybe it is better off that we aren’t so close anymore. I guess the last thing i would want is someone to second guess anything I have to say. And whats even worse is that you just deaded me out of the blue without even asking me if it was true. And i had to get it out of u to find out what was wrong and yet u still barely listened to me about it. But in the end even tho this is my loss, its yours as well but i guess you dont feel it much as you already have backups ready to replace me. Looking back though and from shit I have heard as well, we weren’t as close as I thought we were. I realized i pretty much trusted you blindly with everything whereas you kept ur secrets and were more comfortable telling people you barely knew, which i guess aren’t secrets anymore. But regardless, Ill stop dwelling on this eventually. Life is long, I will find other people as will you. what sucks is that in losing you im losing other friends as well cuz i know what you get like when you don’t like someone. Its like forming a crusade against someone LOL and ive been a part of those before when you didnt like someone making sure they didnt go places with us and what not LOL i guess im on the same boat as those people. Just like they ended up finding new people, i guess i will have to as well. The only thing that i wonder though is why am i getting punished for something i didnt do. Thats the worst probably. I know ive done some messed up things before but we got past that and i was open about you with it just like i would have been if whatever you heard was true. But i guess the whole trusting me comes into this. Others words have more truth then mine do so I cant change that. I just wish u have a good life and find better friends in the future that you can trust. One word of advice tho, don’t always listen to others. Its not gonna be true and one day you might lose someone who ACTUALLY means something to  you.